The other night, I was having dinner in a Chinese
restaurant with some friends. As we were seated, the waitress hustled up to the
table and asked if we wanted tea. John piped up and ordered pu-erh. And before I knew it, I blurted
out, “Oh no, I can’t have that tea, I won’t be able to sleep tonight if I drink
that.”
I swear, the entire table swivelled around to look
at me.
“I’m sorry,” John said eventually, “but did we
invite your father to dinner?”
And there it was. The comment that no child ever
wants to hear. Finally, that moment I’ve been dreading for years had arrived –
the confirmation that I was turning into my parents.
As children, we used to laugh when our parents sat
down after dinner in front of a TV and within a few minutes, they’d be snoring.
Or they’d barge into our rooms and yell at us to turn down the music.
“What are you listening to?” my father would always
complain. “That’s not music! It’s just noise!”
“Don’t you talk back to me!” Mother would warn, her
eyes narrowing to slits. “You young people have no respect for your elders!”
And for years, we listened to our parents moan in
the morning that they’d not slept a wink after drinking Chinese tea at dinner
the night before. By which they meant they’d only slept seven hours instead of
their usual ten.
“Never again!” they swore to each other as they
trudged through the day bleary eyed and then had to take a nap in the afternoon
to recover from their sleep deprivation. Meanwhile, my brother, sister and I somehow
managed to survive on five hours of sleep and still packed in a full day of
school, socialising and late night dancing.
“God, is that what happens when you get old?” my
sister remarked with the flippant insolence of youth.
The other
day, she called me and said that she’d just gotten off the bus. “My God, I just
had to call and tell you this. There was a kid on the bus and he just sat there
while this little old lady struggled to stay on her feet next to him. So I said
to him, ‘Hey, kid, show some respect! Get up for your elders!’ And as soon as
the words were out of my mouth, I realised that I was channelling Mother! Oh my
God, I’m turning into her!”
I told her to relax because I’d already turned into our father. “It’s
actually not that bad,” I said. “It’s a great perspective. I finally understand
why he was always so agitated by us.”
Sharyn says that it wasn’t till she had children of
her own that she finally began getting along with her own mother.
“Before, hor, I always argue argue argue with my
mard-der. Anything she say, I argue,” she told me the other day, her spectacles
fogging up as she started to tear. “But then, hor, when I have my children, I
sar-denly realise, wah, I know why she always so gun-zheong!”
“Oh my God, that’s what I said to my sister!” I
exclaimed. “Not the bit about having my own children, because I don’t, but that
gun-zheong bit!”
“Yah, lah, it’s also because you are older! You
start to see the world the same way! Now, hor, my mard-der and me, we are best
fren! If she scold me, I turn around and scold my children!”
Saffy says she’s never heard of anything more
horrific in her life. The idea of turning into her mother in any way fills her with terror. “She is
so incredibly bossy!” she vented a
few days ago. “Every little thing I do, she’ll find something negative to say.
It’s why I only see her in a group now. That way, she can’t let loose the way
she normally would. Amanda, that lipstick is not the right shade for you!
Especially not with that outfit.”
Amanda paused on her way out of the bathroom. “But
it’s Chanel!”
“And?”
Amanda sighed and turned back into the bathroom.
Saffy turned to me. “So, what was I saying? Oh yes,
my bossy mother. The other day, she
said to me…”
Meanwhile, my slow transformation into my father
continues. This morning, I found myself complaining about the loud music
blaring through our neighbour’s window. “What rubbish are they listening to?” I
asked Amanda who gave me a funny look.
“It’s Lady Gaga!”
I listened. “Ugh, that’s not music! That’s just noise!”
I heard my father’s voice even as I was saying it.
But I think I’m OK with that. At least I’m not turning into my mother.
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